why is it that my horoscope is always painfully accurate? Today, google tells me:
"This Full Moon falls in your 3rd House of Communication, presenting you with an irresolvable paradox. It reminds you about all the feelings that you cannot fit into words."
people say that they only want what's best for you, and that they want you to be happy, but ironicially, sometimes they just can't let you be. and the even more paradoxical thing is that i know exactly how it works, but i can't understand it all. it makes me so angry that i can't just be happy, but i don't want to be left alone. i don't know why i care, because it's my life and i'm the one who's living it and the only person that has to worry about whether or not i'm happy. and i'm the only one who can really know if i am happy or not. so why do i second guess my happiness when other people call it into question? is there ever going to be this time in my life where certain people learn to let go and allow me to just be me and trust that i can make my own decisions and make myself happier than anyone else could? happiness is different for different people, and it's impossible for someone else to tell just by looking at me whether or not this elusive and subjective feeling is present in my being.
i have no real way to finish this, mostly because, as my horoscope says, i really cannot express exactly how i feel about this. i'm not sure what i think or why i think it, what brings it up or when it will go away.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
i'll take ridiculous freaks for 800 please, alex.
i just saw this story http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,276152,00.html about how this woman in georgia thinks that harry potter is evil because it encourages children to adopt the beliefs of witchcraft.
number one...seriously!?!? who's that bored? get a hobby, lady.
number two...if your kid is swayed into witchcraft by a fictional, 12 year old nerd...you have several problems, none of which can be addressed without serious therapy.
number one...seriously!?!? who's that bored? get a hobby, lady.
number two...if your kid is swayed into witchcraft by a fictional, 12 year old nerd...you have several problems, none of which can be addressed without serious therapy.
List of things i currently love
so those of you who know me know that i love making lists. so here i am. making another one. feel free to add things YOU currently love to it. i'm always amenable to new things to love :)
1. water towers
2. the smell of freshly cut grass
3. candyland
4. shelves that hold duct tape
5. sleeping with my fan on
6. big dreams that are actually possible
7. library books
8. chocolate yogurt
9. friends dvd scene it
10. thinking about buying the wonder years on dvd
11. making converse shoes
12. working out after work
13. wine and dirty martinis (there are times and places for each)
14. summer movies that are coming out!
15. tivo
16. gilmore girls JUST starting over from the beginning (again! :) )
17. pictures
18. dreaming about chocolate, gummy bears, ice cream and pie!
19. thinking about the lake house and jet skis!
20. baseballlllllll (although i kind of don't want to talk about the cubs, it's a hopeless and unrequited love that i have for them)
21. writing (yes - i have been at it again, but no, i'm not showing it to anyone because right now the inspiration is just kind of overwhelming and it probably wouldn't make sense to anyone but me)
22. thinking about the beach
23. looking at new shoes (but don't worry, i'm not actually buying any. yet.)
24. white castle
25. secrets ....
1. water towers
2. the smell of freshly cut grass
3. candyland
4. shelves that hold duct tape
5. sleeping with my fan on
6. big dreams that are actually possible
7. library books
8. chocolate yogurt
9. friends dvd scene it
10. thinking about buying the wonder years on dvd
11. making converse shoes
12. working out after work
13. wine and dirty martinis (there are times and places for each)
14. summer movies that are coming out!
15. tivo
16. gilmore girls JUST starting over from the beginning (again! :) )
17. pictures
18. dreaming about chocolate, gummy bears, ice cream and pie!
19. thinking about the lake house and jet skis!
20. baseballlllllll (although i kind of don't want to talk about the cubs, it's a hopeless and unrequited love that i have for them)
21. writing (yes - i have been at it again, but no, i'm not showing it to anyone because right now the inspiration is just kind of overwhelming and it probably wouldn't make sense to anyone but me)
22. thinking about the beach
23. looking at new shoes (but don't worry, i'm not actually buying any. yet.)
24. white castle
25. secrets ....
Thursday, May 24, 2007
Promises, promises
i said i'd write. and then i didn't. i'm terrible. i'm just so consumed by projects lately. i should start doing this again though because i'm trying to work on my writing, and this is a good place to do that. i think that means i have to get over feeling like my thoughts are not important enough for other people to read. they are :)
i feel as though i'm looking at the world a bit differently these days. i feel stronger and more independent than i ever have. for one of the first times in my life, i'm really excited about being an adult and even screwing up once in a while.
it also makes me really happy that people still have the most extraordinary capacity to amaze me. with their kindness, their actions and most of all the things they are capable of doing. people rarely end up being who i initially think they are, and right now, i have never been happier about that.
ok well this is a short and semi meaningless post, but i'm going to try to start writing on a more regular basis. i have big plans and i need to start putting everything in motion.
i feel as though i'm looking at the world a bit differently these days. i feel stronger and more independent than i ever have. for one of the first times in my life, i'm really excited about being an adult and even screwing up once in a while.
it also makes me really happy that people still have the most extraordinary capacity to amaze me. with their kindness, their actions and most of all the things they are capable of doing. people rarely end up being who i initially think they are, and right now, i have never been happier about that.
ok well this is a short and semi meaningless post, but i'm going to try to start writing on a more regular basis. i have big plans and i need to start putting everything in motion.
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