TAG from karel :)

1. Link to your tagger and post rules.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself, some random and some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of post and list their names (I tagged one person because I don't know anyone else with a blog!)
4. Let them know they were tagged by a comment on their blog.

1. i think i am one of the only girls in the world who doesn't enjoy reading celebrity gossip. i don't really like us weekly or the like. i will occasionally read the superficial because it is FUNNY :)

2. i love my job. sometimes i think i am terrible at it or that it is meaningless, but at the end of the day, it is pretty entertaining.

3. i pick at my cuticles. it's a worse habit than nail biting, i swear.

4. m&m's and diet coke is pretty much my idea of the perfect snack ;).

5. i used to show horses. jumping, funny pants, the whole ordeal. i miss it :(

6. i still love to play with legos. i bought a set recently. i think they are so fun!

7.i am a repeat offender. i love to watch the same movie, listen to the same song, etc over and over again until i get really sick of it!

Tag!!

1. Naz

so you know i'm bored when...

1. Are you into anyone?
totally.

2. Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks?
what do YOU think?

3. Who was the last friend in your room?
marissa. this morning. after i spilled the coffee grinds. ALL over the floor.

4. Miss someone?
i miss nicole. come back from chile, please. oh and meg :)

5. How's your ex doing?
which one?

6. Is there someone you want to fight?
my dentist!

7. Song playing?
The Sniper at the Gates of Heaven by the Black Angels

8. Who is your favorite Author?
Nabokov. and wally lamb.

9. What are you doing tomorrow?
working. as usual :) and probably working out. and watching private practice!!!


10. Have you ever been in love?
yes.

11. What's annoying you right now?
the fact that it's not even noon yet :)

12. Do you want to go back to high school?
sometimes. very rarely though.

13. Have you ever watched a movie drunk?
yes. but then i don't remember them.

14. What are you doing tonight?
making and eating dinner with dan probably. and going to the gym.

15. Who did you ride in a car with last?
me, myself and i.

16. Are you tired?
nope!

17. Who will you be with today/tonight?
my cubicle is lonely today cause serena is downtown. but tnight, it may be a three's company night ;)

18. What did you want to be when you were a child (job).
a vet.

19. What color is the shirt you are wearing?
jungle green.

20. What will you do Sunday?
i am going downtown with my parents and dan to celebrate my birthday :)

21. Last person to call you?
a reporter from PC Mag.

22.Who do you text the most often?
dan. about really useless stuff too ;)

23. Does your family own any mansions?
um.

24. Do you have any interesting bruises or scars?
yes. all the way across my ass :) i'll let you think about that one.

25. Where were you at noon yesterday?
um. at work. hello!?!

26. How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
40 minutes or less or it's free. ha.

27. Have you been outside of the U.S?
mexico, canada and the bahamas!

28. The last comment you received was from:
your mom.

29. Last show you watched?
i'm going to plead the fifth here.

30. Who do you rent movies from?
blockbuster. although apparently if the movie i want is out, i just buy it.

31. Do you wish at 11:11?
sometimes. i like eyelash wishing better tho.

32. Do you wear any jewelry?
yes.

33. Next vacation you're going on
vacation? remind me what that is again ... :)

34. Do you have any piercings? How many?
2 in each ear.

35. Favorite book you ever read?
oh dear. that's like asking me about the best bowl of ice cream i've ever had.

36. Last person you hugged?
no one at work, thank goodness.

37. Favorite pet growing up?
oh sassy :(

38.Who/What made you angry today?
ain't no one gonna bring me down today ;)

39. Do you sing in the shower?
when i'm home alone.

40. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
yes. a banjo serenade here and there is surprisingly romantic ;)

41. Do you love anyone?
the list is just so long.

42. Did you go to college?
yes. yes i did. i win!

43. What's your fav. breed of dog?
ok i am REALLY in a dilemma about whether to get a corgi, a westie or a puggle!!!!

44. What ethnicity do you claim to be?
irish.

45. Do you find yourself loved?
i am a lucky girl.

46. Called anyone a bitch today?
no. i absolutely DETEST that word.

47. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
the foot of the bed?

48. If you could have anything in the world right now, what would it be?
hmmmm... maybe a new digital camera?

49. What is your natural hair color?
brown. what it is now.

50. What are you excited for?
my birthday, thanksgiving, the REST of my life!

I LOVE OCTOBER

so apparently i decided to not write in this blog throughout the month of september. i am going to pretend like that was intentional. september was officially blog boycotting month. but now that it is october, i am getting back in all sorts of good habits and there is much excitement to write about!

it's my birthday next week :) i'm still a little kid and that still makes me really happy. i have a lot of great plans, and i'm spending it with some really special people, so i think it is an appropriate happiness.

the cubs are in the PLAYOFFS!!!! how often does that happen? i know a lot of skeptics are saying that this is just another chance for them to blow it, but i am feeling particularly optimistic, and right now it is 2-0. oops. as the diamondbacks hit a homerun and make it 3-2. oh well. at least i have someone to root for into october. always fun :)

i am starting to work out again, per my new gym membership, and even though it's only been three days, i already feel a LOT better. there have been many times in my life that i have been able to keep up a consistent workout schedule and i always look back on those times fondly ;) i am going to keep myself motivated no matter WHAT!

work is really great too, but i won't go into too many details about that. it still really stresses me out, but i am at least starting to climb some ladders...

couldn't be happier....

one of my best amigas for life, nicole - got married this past weekend in chile.

i just looked at the pictures online and i literally felt like i was there...i even started crying. i can't believe it. i've never been happier for anyone in my life and no one deserves it more than those two amazing people. the most congratulations to both of you. i love you!

why i love cooking with dan.

he's good at what he does.

he doesn't complain when i don't help, and he gets out of my way when i am in the mood to cook.

he understands the importance of wine as a vital cooking component.

he likes to listen to the same cooking music i do.

he likes the same foods i do at the same time i do and he's always willing to try new things...i introduced him to brie tonight and he loves it just as much as i do!

he knows how to cook chicken well.

he always lets me snack while we're cooking.

i'm in a friday state of mind

what is it about fridays? they make me feel so lazy :) i think it's usually the knowledge that the next day, i will be able to sleep in all i like. but this weekend, that's not even the case. tomorrow, i have to get up for an 8:30am haircut! (although i am really excited about that because i haven't had it cut since march and i am beginning to feel like a sheep dog). on sunday, danno, and his cousin want to go "footin'" (barefoot waterskiing) at approximately 6am. i am tempted to stay in bed and sleep through it, but i have been waiting allllllllllllll summer to watch him ski. he wants me to try too. it's not that i'm a huge wuss or anything, i honestly just don't want to have to deal with the consequences if i do get hurt. although, i'll probably just suck it up and try it, particularly if i go through all the effort of getting up so early anyway.

but right now. i feel like doing so many things that don't involve PR :).

i feel like reading a book i've read a zillion times. i feel like going on a picnic. i feel like baking cookies. i feel like playing the piano. i feel like playing bags and drinking beer. i feel like watching step up (again - or really any terribly awesome movie that i own :) ). i feel like embarking on an entirely new book i've never even read! i feel like watching episode after episode of gilmore girls. i feel like buying new clothes (or shoes). i feel like getting a tattoo. i feel like cooking spare ribs. i feel like starting to write a book. i feel like scrapbooking. i feel like walking around and taking pictures of random things. i feel like making ice cream. i feel like doing yoga. i feel like lifting weights. i feel like painting my room. i feel like sketching. i feel like watching all of the harry potter movies in order (including the ones that haven't even been made/released yet). i feel like going to play with puppies. i feel like horseback riding. i feel like decorating my apartment. i feel like drinking a milkshake. i feel like going to see "no reservations" again. i feel like just lying around with dan. i feel like learning how to skateboard. i want to go to a library or a book store and read the first ten pages of eight million different books. i want to go to arby's and get a beef and cheddar. i want to watch the wonder years. i want to go to a beach or a pool.

wow :) now i REALLY don't want to be at work!

Who's scared to go outside?

So my office is having a company party outside tonight, but reading the newspaper has made me afraid to go outside ever again!!!

WHY CAN'T THEY JUST LEAVE US ALONE?!??!

Don't you ever wonder...

where those people go? the ones you lost track of ... the ones you don't speak to. even if you were or are done with them. doesn't curiousity ever get the best of you? do these people continue to have lives after they have finished affecting yours? and if you're wondering about it, which means they are continuing to affect you, what does that mean?

i think these social networking sites go against nature. people are supposed to come into your life and then leave and then you're supposed to be done with them. you're not supposed to get updates on your news feed about them. you're not supposed to forge fake relationships with them just because you can or just because it will boost your popularity on facebook. it is harder to forget about people you want to because they are in your daily techno life and you are continuously confronted with updates on their lives ... if it's with twitter - you get updates every four minutes.

although i guess i can't really complain and it's not all bad .... i reconnected with someone i rather enjoy having in my life through facebook. it's so strange to think about and i probably wouldn't have, if someone hadn't brought it directly to my attention the other day, but i would honestly be in a very different place right now with my life and who i surround myself with if it were not for facebook and some very pointed and directed friend sprees i went on during bouts of dissatisfaction with my social life a little earlier this year. i sometimes go back and read the messages and wall posts from this time and it's so odd how i have complete documentation of the process and i can clearly get an emotional memory of how i felt when i saw that first wall post or what i was thinking when i responded.

i guess facebook, etc are kind of changing the way we evolve, relationship wise. it'll take some getting used to, but i suppose that for the time being, i don't think that it's all that bad ;)

I have started a new Blog

I have launched yet another blog. This one is completely dedicated to PR and musings about the industry and my experience. Please check it out at: http://prtalk.blogspot.com/

Absolutely Unreal

..... people's lives becoming creepily intertwined with their second lives...

Second Life takes Over

this would make anyone happy

seriously. i've watched this video approximately nine times and i'm still giggling at it. i LOVE it!


Look how happy he is!

Dealing with stress

i need to work on this. seriously. i don't even know how stressed out i am until i'm taking it out on other people and letting it affect the way i work and the way i evaluate life and make decisions. which is not good. i wish i could install some sort of apparatus in my body that would help me determine that i am stressed out and then i could take some time out to do something about it. like look at happy pictures :) or read a good book. i still haven't read my book that i allow myself to read once a year without feeling guilty. in fact, i still haven't finished harry potter. there's too much to do and i make too many plans. so i need to stop trying to fill every second of life with something to do. it's a bad habit i've had since i was little, but it's burning me out and making me not enjoy the activities that plan as much. quality, not quantity. i'm always so afraid that i'm going to miss out on something, but then i participate in so many things that i am missing out on things that i want to do for myself. it's my new day's resolution to work on that. and to take the time to put into motion some of these life projects that i've really been gunning to work on instead of just thinking and talking about them. because that would make me feel better and more productive and i would also get to enjoy the results. these projects often take a back seat to more time sensitive, "pressing" obligations. but i need to not let that happen. i need to make room in my life for a few more interests and inspirations but do it without spreading myself too thin. that's who i am - a jack of all trades or something like that. and previous employers of mine may have disapproved of that, but it's something about myself that i just don't want to change. and i won't :)

can they DO that?

i really don't think this is possible, but it's kind of interesting, particularly since i've always found that word to be especially offensive and harsh...

Freedom of Speech?

could this dog BE any cuter?!

ok i know that i just shouldn't get a puppy right this second. but i want one SO badly. when dan and i went to PET COOOOOOOOOO and saw all the puppies playing, i seriously considered just stealing one. i know it's wrong, but he'd be so much happier with me. i would probably quit my job just to play with it all the time. i know all the negatives behind my having a dog right now, but if i keep looking at these pictures every day, i will probably just break down and buy one despite all the logic that tells me not to!

moment of zen

i just want to take this moment to document how happy i am. blissfully, soul shakingly happy. just let me know who to thank and i'll do it.

Monday Motivation

i find it so difficult to make myself move on mondays these days. maybe it's because i am overwhelmed by the week ahead, in combination with the overwhelming volume of clients i have to take care of and the overwhelming goals i set for myself which i don't take the time to write down so i just feel even more overwhelmed by the concept of lofty goals with multiple clients!


i think that on mondays, i am going to start writing down REASONABLE goals for myself for the week. not just work stuff either. other projects and now that i have my apartment, apartment related stuff. we need so many things still and there is so much for me to do before it can really feel like home (even aside from just moving the numerous boxes that are so obnoxiously blocking the doorway to my room!)

i am, however, extremely excited about this apartment, because it feels more "real" to me than the other places i have resided. st. louis would have been real, but it didn't last very long.

i'm hoping to catch a huge wave of inspiration as far as decorating goes and create something amazing that i will want to wake up to every day and spend time staring at. if any of you creative minds have any ideas, let me know!!!! :)

Moving this weekend! :)

first of all - i am SO excited to be moving this weekend. it'll be sad to not be around my parents all the time, but definitely good for me, my social life and perhaps my sanity :) (sorry, mom). there's just so many things that i've been wanting to do that i just haven't been able to up until now because of so many obstacles that came along with living at home (long commute to work, having to take my parents into consideration when making plans, uncertain timing issues) but now! i plan on doing so many things and i just hope that i have the time and motivation to do them.

i want to write SO much. i want to take classes. i want to cook more. i want to work on my scrapbook and take more pictures and give in to all the inspiration i have been been allowing to build up without too much of an outlet.

i'm also just excited to have a space that is my own again. i miss being able to decorate and i haven't felt like a "real person" while living with my parents. i just bought my own car and now i'm ready to drive away into the real world. :) wish me luck!

the most amazing weekend of my life (so far)

haha. i'm already laughing at my title. it's a throwback to just one of the many amazing things i did this weekend. but we'll get there.

honestly, at the outset, i wasn't all that excited about this weekend. it seemed like there were a lot of fun things planned, but i just was more in the mood to sit around and do nothing, so it was almost a bad thing that i had so many plans. especially considering that i am moving next weekend (yey!) and that will be quite the strenuous effort i'm sure. but - once i got into everything and got the momentum going ... it was cramazing. (crazy + amazing = my new stupid word that i'm kind of obsessed with :) )

friday - even though we got off to kind of a late start, eating at muldoon's was phenomenal. good food, and it was such an amazing double date for me because it seems to be the start of a long pattern of such nights (considering it was with my new roomie and her new boyfriend!!!) it was sad that we didn't make it to the dupage county fair in time to get in, but no lie, watching from the parking lot was almost better. we didn't have to pay, i didn't feel claustrophobic, and we could just leave whenever we wanted to! :) also - praise allah that dan and i finally BOUGHT the breakup, because i'm pretty sure that we've bought it at least twice with all the rental and late fees we've spent watching it so far. and also amazing that despite all our plans, we managed to watch it two or three times this weekend.

saturday - working out = amazing. it was such a beautiful day to go running, and run i did! it felt nice to get sweaty, and even though i'm really sore now, that feels pretty good too. i can't wait til i join the gym and start working out on a regular basis. i really miss it. and i miss the way i feel afterward. (i was really good this morning, pts, i could have gotten mickey d's breakfast or even a bagel, but i went to jewel and got yogurt and oatmeal! hooray for self discipline!) shopping was ... one of those things that's supposed to be a chore, but for some reason, didn't feel like one due to dan's amazing company :) and also the fact that we got to go to the pet store!!! and since it was saturday, everyone had their cutest ever little doggies for me to vicariously enjoy! :) we watched the dogs playing in doggie day care for a while until this guy kept talking to us and we got a bit scared and walked away. i even saw an adorable puggle!!! the graduation party, especially if you ask dan, was probably not particularly exciting, but i love spending time with dan's family. i love how much they love and appreciate him and how much he helps them out with everything. i also just love them! they're funny and fun and easy to be around and they make me feel extremely welcome. the SIMPSONS MOVIE!!! hahaha - that's what the title is about. but anyway, it was decent, funny. but it was fun going with a bunch of people. and my first buffalo wild wings experience wasn't half bad either. even though it was kind of an everyday kind of night, i just felt lucky to have so many great friends to do things like that with - and they're all so funny (i absolutely cannot WAIT to see everyone's halloween costumes!)

sunday - um, hello best food festival of my life. we went to pierogi fest in whiting, IN, and as i said then, and will repeat now, i honestly cannot think of a better food to dedicate an entire festival to. and once again, it was nice to be around dan's family and get to know jim and judy even better. they're so much fun, and i actually really love their kids (even though jimmy CAN be the devil sometimes). even though i think my favorite food of the day was the fudge topped funnel cake, the whole thing was just really fun and special. and i didn't want it to end. which is why i made the perhaps foolish decision to stay at dan's on a sunday night. which is why i ended up waking up at 4:40am and getting to work before 7. oh well - today is going to be a long one - ack! i am going to be so tempted to read harry potter all day! and thoughts of a certain someone i'm sure, will continually be on my brain :) but this is the last week of forced separation - after this, it's all voluntary, baby!

avoid...

complacency. honestly, i think that lack of complacency is what keeps me afloat most of the time. never being satisfied and always working for more.

Creepy Horoscope

So, it's kind of weird how they know me just a little too well sometimes ...

If your life has been improving, you might be wondering how long this positive phase will last. Although nothing is permanent, worrying about unforeseen changes is usually a waste of energy. By consciously focusing your attention on the present moment, the good times will last longer than you expect.

frustrations galore

bah!

my room is messy and even though i don't really feel like going through the effort of cleaning it, it's bothering me! i'm moving out soon so i really feel like cleaning it would be fruitless. i keep tripping over things. and this room is hectic and crazy cause i have something to do every night, so i feel a bit rushed.

but i'm soso happy!

post-party depression?

i just had a spectacular weekend. i went to my cousin's lakehouse for his graduation party with dan, and as is the norm down there - everyone was drunker than cooter brown before noon. it was great, and i always have such a great time with my mom while she's there. she always seems more relaxed and happy when she's with those people. which makes me happy. she's a little less my mom and a little more one of my drunken college friends that understands about beirut, keg stands and needing a hot dog at 3 am. ha.

it was also really amazing because i seem to have finally found someone that can not only understand and tolerate some of my unusual and obnoxious drunk behavior but sometimes joins in and has also pledged to adjust hi behavior in conjunction with mine. in true molly style, halfway through the afternoon, i feel like passing out, but of course, don't tell anyone where i'm going. dan finds me - 90 minutes later, sleeping in my mom's bed. of course, he was worried and a little upset at first. but after some oh so rational drunken discussion, he promised that from now on, he'll know that that is just something that i do, and he'll keep an eye on me because he just doesn't want anything to happen to me. people are always talking about how the key to a successful relationship is honesty and compromise. but i'm not entirely sure they are just referring to ordering a pizza even though you really want chinese. the most important compromise ... (realizing and understanding the following concept is definitely an important first for me) is realizing that maybe the way you do everything isn't necessarily perfect. that maybe you don't have to defend everything you do just because you thought it was right at one time. you truly find someone you love, and then you bend your outlook on life in certain aspects because the other person just can't. and you know that it will never work otherwise. you apologize even when you know you're right sometimes just because it's more important to the other person in certain instances. and you know the whole time that he'd do the same thing for you and that in the end, everything balances out. because you're never going to find the perfect package deal. there are going to be times when you're going to feel the least in love with that person that you've ever felt and he's going to make me mad and i'm going to hate him. but the love part is getting past all that and knowing that he's the one worth fighting for.

my dad has been right all along. (by the way, realizing that your parents were right about things that you have been arguing with them about since you were a teenager has GOT to be one of the most frustrating things in the world. and it's been happening to me pretty much continuously since sophomore year of college). but he was definitely right about this. if you really and truly love someone, they could never really do anything wrong in your eyes. true love has been romanticized a lot in a variety of different mediums, and so i think that maybe its concept has been run off track a little. and that's bad because i think that fact is partially to blame for the extremely high current divorce rate.

anyway. not that i am the expert on love or anything. maybe i don't have a clue. but i honestly didn't think i could ever feel the way i do right now. it's different. and to me, that's a good sign, because all that other stuff that was the same didn't really work out too well...

a sense of accomplishment

it's funny what can make you feel productive. for my mom, it's cleaning the house. i have to admit, i don't feel half bad about myself when my room is clean (number one, yes i'm aware that that sounds like something a 13 year old might say and number two, wow it is SO messy right now. in fact, i have to get on it, or i won't get my allowance for this week ;) )

i mean, in college, it was easy - you write a paper and look at the bulk of it and think "damn. i'm so amazing. how did i manage to churn out 18.5 pages about how the jazz movement affected and reflected the civil rights movement?"

now that i've entered the working world, does that mean that feelings of accomplishment only come around twice a month (hellooooooo - pay day! )

no. you have to learn to feel accomplished about the little things. like when i finish writing this entry and see it posted, it will for some strange reason, make me feel good about myself. i think it has something to do with leaving your mark around for other people to see. like if there's physical proof that you've done something, then you're allowed to be proud of it.

i'm going to start being proud of stuff you can't see. i'll make a list though, so everyone knows what it is :)

You Are 55% Pure

You're not so innocent... in fact, you're quite unpure. You have seen and experienced a lot. And you're no worse for the wear!

The 100 Question Purity Test

ok now i really do want it to be christmas

seriously. dan and i have been talking about christmas stuff lately too. it really gives me a craving to hear christmas music and have it be christmas again! i'm like a little kid. we decided that we are not only going to build a gingerbread house, but a gingerbread SPREAD that takes up half his house :) i want to make a replica of wrigley (stadium, field). i'm so excited.

one of the most amazing things about christmas is that i just can't put my finger on exactly why it's so special. especially when i'm in the middle of the whole thing, it's just great and i don't even really want to think about why. it also makes me really happy that last year and this year, i didn't really have to travel to be home for christmas!!! i like being near my family.

i also have a craving for fall. i was watching gilmore girls yesterday and they had fall coats on and there were leaves and yey! :) i just want it to be my birthday/halloween. haha. except that i'm turning 23. and that kind of scares me. it's so old!

i wish it could be christmas all year long ...

Your Christmas is Most Like: A Christmas Story

Loving, fun, and totally crazy. Don't shoot your eye out!

What Movie Is Your Christmas Most Like?

and i am my own hero

i just programmed my own universal remote! by myself!

i know that to most of you, this seems like no real accomplishment. but believe me, it took everything in me not to make my dad do it for me. i am so proud of myself!!!!!!

talkin bout my g g g generation

so i read this huge article in fortune today about how people of my generation (gen y) fit into the working world. it is defined as anyone born between the years of 1977 and 1995. it's funny, because although the article isn't completely insulting, it's fringed with bitterness.

the author claims that people of our generation are not lazy, that we are actually good workers (in between snarky snippets about how we carry our ipods and blackberries everywhere) but that along with this dedication to hard work, we are dragged down by our sense of entitlement and insistence that everything be done our way or not at all. These attributes are correlated directly to how our parents (the baby boomers) treated us growing up. apparently our self esteem was bolstered too much and our parents gave us too much confidence. the other slightly obnoxious, a little too close to home (no pun intended) component to this article was that our generation feels too comfortable relying on our parents and moving back home, which makes us fearless in the workplace, and thus, essentially untame-able!

i'm not sure how i feel about this generalized assessment of my generation. on one hand, i agree whole heartedly about the patterns that are accentuated and even guiltily, yet readily admit to perpetrating some of these crimes in the business world. but then again, i think ... it's a totally different world right now. technology is developing at a speed faster than anyone can keep up with (least of all my parents who ask me every time they need the channel changed) and these washed up executives NEED us to remind them of the trends of our generation because essentially, we are the target market for everything. we are on the precipice of taking over the world, so why shouldn't it be on our terms? in the next decade 64 million people will retire from the working world. and they have to groom us to take over after they're gone. are they simply upset that we won't be running things exactly the way they have? i guess i can understand that. but at the same time, times change, progress pushes forward and you have to learn to roll with the punches. honestly, and this could be the gen y brat in me talking, but my bottom line opinion is that we may be demanding and completely reliant on our ipods, blackberries and cell phones, but we are the mother f*cking future, so either hop on with us, or get the hell out of our way!


**********side note************

this assessment of a "generation" makes me wonder what's in store for my children? what stereotypes will go along with their age group? what comes next? will i be bitter about upcoming generations when i'm older?

cubs!

so i went to the cubs game yesterday and it was AMAZING! despite my illness which was not helped by the sweltering heat, i had an absolutely amazing time with dre and kristyn (dan's little sister). there was this amazing fight - d-lee got all up in the padres' pitchers' face after he hit him in the head with a pitch, and then there was just a full out brawl, which we were in really exciting proximity to.

it makes me want to go to cubs games all the freakin time. especially when i'm not sick!

hopefully things at work will settle down this week and i can regroup and make vast improvements on the things that are in dire need. friday i just felt so scattered and pressured and exasperated. i really hope that i can get back on track next week and save myself from going absolutely insane.

oh and...

TOP CHEF IS BACK!!!! WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

whiny mcwhinerson

i hate when i get in moods that i can neither explain or rectify. i am in such a whiny mood. my head hurts. i miss dan. i don't want to be at work. i'm disappointed in a group of people i thought i could count on. i want naz to be ok. i HATE complaining but can't stop. i don't want to sell my jetta. i want my dad to be ok. i hate traffic. i wish i made more money. i hate people who are ridiculously self important for NO reason.


ok. enough. i'm stopping myself. how about this?

work's almost over. i get to see dan tomorrow. i'm better off without those people anyway because at least now i know who my true friends are. getting a new car will be fun! i get to go to the cubs game this saturday. i have a cute and amazing boyfriend. i have wonderful friends. i get to move to the city soon! i love my job (most days). naz is so lucky that she made it through what she did! i can rise above what people do and say.

there. the positives sufficiently outweigh the negatives. and my headache is maybe kind of going away. and i get to SEE naz today. so amazing.

in love with summer

so far the fun list of summer things to do (as compiled jointly by marissa, dan and myself - please add more if i'm leaving anything out!)

- six flags
- reo speedwagon
- beach boys
- water park
- drive in movies
- cubs game
- wisconsin dells
- country thunder
- indiana state fair
- lake house, water skiing, jet skiing


so excited. oh, and then there's that whole new apartment thing - marissa, jen and i are moving to the city! :)

Distracting Survey

69 Questions to Start the Summer

1. Are you in a relationship?
si.

2. Do you hate more than 3 people?
nope. only one mortal enemy - that's all people are allowed.

3. How many houses have you lived in?
6 or 7 i believe.

4. What is your favorite candy?
m&m's ... or red gummy bears.

5. What are your favorite shoes?
chucks!

7. What's your favorite continent?
ASIA!!! (audio visual daily double + how i know you're gay)

8. What is your favorite time of day?
dusk.

9. Do you own a Britney Spears CD?
pleading the fifth.

10. Have you ever thrown up in public?
in public? parking lots aplenty.

11. Name something that's always on your mind.
joey lawrence. orrrrrr i don't know. i'm too ADD to have anything on my mind ALLLLLLL the time

12. What is your favorite musical group?
i'm going to have to go with kings.

13. What is your sign?
libra

14. What time were you born?
sadly enough, i don't have a clue.

15. Do you like beer?
yes. are there people that don't?

16. Have you ever made a prank call?
oh yes.

17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own?
hmmm... i'm not embarassed by it, but i do own the care bear's christmas album...entitled "holiday hugs."

18. Are you sarcastic?
oh no. just a grade a, first class smartass. i would never DREAM of being sarcastic.

19. What are your favorite colors?
purple. green. silver. but prolly not together.

20. How many watches do you own?
um. probably eight thousand. i can only find about five of them though.

21. Summer or winter?
summer, but i love the first snow

22. Spring or fall?
falllllllll.

23. What is your favorite color to wear?
blue.

24. Pepsi or Coke?
obvi, diet coke.

25. What color is your room?
well. it's not really my room. so. it's not important.

26. Where is your second home?
i'm not sure i'm welcome anywhere other than my house. and possibly not even there.

27. Have you ever slapped someone?
not seriously.

28. Have you ever had a cavity?
nope. oh wait. maybe?

29. How many lamps are in your bedroom?
uno.

30. How many video games do you own?
this question makes me want to cry. if only my mom hadn't sold ALL of my sega games.

31. What was your first pet?
my pupper, sassy. RIP :(

32. Have you ever had braces?
oh yeah. they were hot.

33. Do looks matter?
this question annoys me. of course they matter. do people want to admit that they matter? no. so what are you supposed to say? attractiveness is relative anyway. when i find someone to be endearing, they are the most attractive person in the world. but even male models can turn ugly if they're obnoxious.

34. Do you use lipstick?
i use chapstick.

35. Favorite childhood cartoon?
i'm thinkin' duck tales. woo hoo.

36. American Eagle or Abercrombie?
i used to be a big american eagle preppie.

37. Are you too forgiving?
probably - although it depends on the person.


38. How many children do you want?
do i have to have children? it seems like it will be a fairly painful process that i'm not sure i can handle.

39. Do you own something from Hot Topic?
sure. they were the first to come out with those cartoon screen print t-shirts.

40. What is your favorite breakfast?
hot pockets :)

41. Do you own a gun?
negative, ghost rider.

42. Have you ever thought you were in love?
um yes. my thoughts about this issue are fairly complex. on one hand, i believe that you really only fall in love with one person because i don't know that i believe in falling out of love. but then ... how do you determine once you are ACTUALLY in love? if you love that person for eternity, i would concede that you must be in love. but then it never ends and you would never know! everything in the world is really about perception, but it's possible that this is the one exception. hi, i'm molly and i answer simple yes or no questions with excessive explanations.

43. When was the last time you cried?
when i found out about naz.

44. What did you do 3 nights ago?
went to dinner with dan and my daddy-o

45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden?
good friday. with dre and the rents. we got drunk off wine and threw bread at my dad because we were pretending he was a duck?

46. Have you ever called your teacher mom?
haha no. but other kids did. that was awesome.

47. Have you ever been in a castle?
hearst.

48. What are your nicknames?
oh dear. molls, mo, mojo, jolly mo, mollza, mantos, tantos, mentos, the freshmaker, squeaker, molly moo, captain planet.

49. Do you know anyone named Bertha?
....no

50. Have you ever been to Kentucky?
nope

51. Do you own something from Banana Republic?
yes

52. Are you thinking about somebody right now?
por supuesto.

53. Have you ever called someone Boo?
hell no.

55. Do you own a diamond ring?
nope.

56. Are you happy with your life right now?
despite all the sporadic suckiness (mostly work related), i think i can categorically say that i am the happiest i have ever been in my entire life.

57. Do you dye your hair?
occcccccccccasionally

58. does anyone like you?
just one person. and i pay him. or her.

59. What year were you born?
1984

60. What were you doing May of 1994?
um. thinking about what would happen in june of 2007.

61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD?
this is almost worse than britney spears.

62. McDonalds or Wendy's
wendy's. hands down.

63. Do you like yourself?
probably more than anyone else likes me :)

64. Are you closer to your mother or father?
totally different kinds of relationships.

65. Favorite feature of the opposite sex?
eyes

66. Are you afraid of the dark?
ohhh SNICK....

67. Have you ever eaten paste?
no but i ate rocks...and play doh

68. Do you have a webcam?
no.

69. Have you ever stripped?
every day before i get in the shower.

Nazli Love

Nazli is in the hospital. she has blood clots in her leg and her lungs.

her reaction to the situation (ridiculously high spirits, particularly in the face of what i know is a lot of suffering)only proves to me how amazing she really is and only furthers my admiration for her. i wish there were something more i could do for her.

it only goes to show true character in the face of adversity - which i will have to pull through on myself, considering that i am single handedly taking on all of her accounts while she gets better :)

anyway, i miss her immensely and i can honestly say that i know she will be ok. she's so strong and her zest for life is unbeatable. i hate to see bad things happen to such good people, but i know that the truest cliche i have ever heard is "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger." inspiration stems from moments of the utmost suffering and i know that nazli is up to the challenge.

this definitely makes me think twice about not heading to the doctor/hospital when i have medical issues i would really rather ignore. i'm definitely a bit more wary about health.

My Pirate Name

Your Pirate Name Is...

Lieutenant-Colonel Flirty Fran

What's Your Pirate Name?

case of the rainy mondays

i so didn't want to get out of bed this morning.

and i can't force myself to do things that are productive that i know i need to get done. they're not particularly difficult or taxing tasks. where does motivation come from anyway? how can i get more of it on days like these when doing work is such a struggle? maybe i need a reward system or something.

speaking of happiness

i don't know how my weekend could have been any better...white castle, legos, amaaaaaaazing company...

my body is sore, and i have to go to work tomorrow, but i am the happiest i've ever been in my life. even things that i would normally dread doing ... don't bother me. sweet euphoria :)

it's also really nice to know that it is ok to have a disagreement. it's ok to have different interests, different points of view, different opinions, and it only makes you stronger.

on another note, i think that going to work during the summer is going to be REALLY difficult. all i want to do is be outside and go boating and swimming and drink martinis by the pool!

i just feel really overwhelmed with inspiration and ideas of things i want to do and say and write down and so this is probably not making a lot of sense right now. and i don't care. i am also really starting to feel like i am truly growing into who i will and want to be. and it's not as hard as it used to be. the struggles are different. the payoffs are higher. i'm getting better at life :)

painful paradox

why is it that my horoscope is always painfully accurate? Today, google tells me:
"This Full Moon falls in your 3rd House of Communication, presenting you with an irresolvable paradox. It reminds you about all the feelings that you cannot fit into words."

people say that they only want what's best for you, and that they want you to be happy, but ironicially, sometimes they just can't let you be. and the even more paradoxical thing is that i know exactly how it works, but i can't understand it all. it makes me so angry that i can't just be happy, but i don't want to be left alone. i don't know why i care, because it's my life and i'm the one who's living it and the only person that has to worry about whether or not i'm happy. and i'm the only one who can really know if i am happy or not. so why do i second guess my happiness when other people call it into question? is there ever going to be this time in my life where certain people learn to let go and allow me to just be me and trust that i can make my own decisions and make myself happier than anyone else could? happiness is different for different people, and it's impossible for someone else to tell just by looking at me whether or not this elusive and subjective feeling is present in my being.

i have no real way to finish this, mostly because, as my horoscope says, i really cannot express exactly how i feel about this. i'm not sure what i think or why i think it, what brings it up or when it will go away.

i'll take ridiculous freaks for 800 please, alex.

i just saw this story http://www.foxnews.com/story/0,2933,276152,00.html about how this woman in georgia thinks that harry potter is evil because it encourages children to adopt the beliefs of witchcraft.

number one...seriously!?!? who's that bored? get a hobby, lady.

number two...if your kid is swayed into witchcraft by a fictional, 12 year old nerd...you have several problems, none of which can be addressed without serious therapy.

List of things i currently love

so those of you who know me know that i love making lists. so here i am. making another one. feel free to add things YOU currently love to it. i'm always amenable to new things to love :)

1. water towers
2. the smell of freshly cut grass
3. candyland
4. shelves that hold duct tape
5. sleeping with my fan on
6. big dreams that are actually possible
7. library books
8. chocolate yogurt
9. friends dvd scene it
10. thinking about buying the wonder years on dvd
11. making converse shoes
12. working out after work
13. wine and dirty martinis (there are times and places for each)
14. summer movies that are coming out!
15. tivo
16. gilmore girls JUST starting over from the beginning (again! :) )
17. pictures
18. dreaming about chocolate, gummy bears, ice cream and pie!
19. thinking about the lake house and jet skis!
20. baseballlllllll (although i kind of don't want to talk about the cubs, it's a hopeless and unrequited love that i have for them)
21. writing (yes - i have been at it again, but no, i'm not showing it to anyone because right now the inspiration is just kind of overwhelming and it probably wouldn't make sense to anyone but me)
22. thinking about the beach
23. looking at new shoes (but don't worry, i'm not actually buying any. yet.)
24. white castle
25. secrets ....

Promises, promises

i said i'd write. and then i didn't. i'm terrible. i'm just so consumed by projects lately. i should start doing this again though because i'm trying to work on my writing, and this is a good place to do that. i think that means i have to get over feeling like my thoughts are not important enough for other people to read. they are :)

i feel as though i'm looking at the world a bit differently these days. i feel stronger and more independent than i ever have. for one of the first times in my life, i'm really excited about being an adult and even screwing up once in a while.

it also makes me really happy that people still have the most extraordinary capacity to amaze me. with their kindness, their actions and most of all the things they are capable of doing. people rarely end up being who i initially think they are, and right now, i have never been happier about that.

ok well this is a short and semi meaningless post, but i'm going to try to start writing on a more regular basis. i have big plans and i need to start putting everything in motion.

long overdue

i need to write something. and soon. i feel like lately my thoughts have been consumed by things that are definitely not of general public interest, which is why i haven't been writing. but i'm ready to start again! :) maybe tonight.

Consumerism

Stephen Colbert had this guest on last night that was talking about the problems with what consumerism has become. He says that it used to be that products were created in order to feed the needs of consumers. But NOW - things are invented first and the need is developed after. As a result, we've developed a culture of overabundance and excessiveness.

This is definitely something I agree with, although I hadn't even thought about it that way until now. In marketing, we used to do case studies where we would research what needs people had, but by this, they mean needs that people didn't even know they had. Food, consumer electronics, clothes, shoes, etc. Kind of crazy. I wonder what would happen if the economy didn't work that way...

Please. To Answer the Question

I know people will have very strong opinions about this, but I have to ask : should we even bother voting in Presidential elections?

Make your life zen

I just read this really amazing book. It's called "Zen: 24/7." It literally goes through almost any action, chore, errand, activity any person would go through in a day. It then relates that activity to something in the history of Buddhism and talks about the zen way to approach the activity.

My favorite is zen dessert. It talks about the importance of indulgence and learning how to savor things in life. It seems like such a simple thing, but so many people either neglect to do it at all or if they do, do not fully enjoy what they are taking in.

This book is wonderful because it reminds me of how easy it is to become mesmerized by little things in life that you go through the motions of every day without even thinking twice. If everyone in the world stopped to think about how all the components of their life contributed to a better existence for them, I think everyone would get along a lot better and the world would be an exponentially better place.

Lots of very trustworthy sources will tell you that spirituality is a common factor amongst the happiest people in the world. I can definitely believe that. People who are unhappy tend to get caught up in their problems and focus too much on introspection, which can sometimes lead to wallowing. It's important to take a step back and examine something bigger than you. Note that I think this is different than religion, which I am not a big fan of. Religion to me seems cultish and group motivated. Spirituality is self motivated and reminds people to put things in perspective. I've been reading a lot about Buddhism lately, and although this IS a religion, it seems different. In Catholicism, for example, it's an all or nothing deal - you either choose to be completely Catholic, participating in all the rituals, taking what you believe with what you find to be preposterous just to be a member of the Catholic community. It seems pretentious. Buddhism really attempts to reach people on any level. You can choose all, or just parts, but any attempt to understand is welcomed.

Anyway - this book is one of the best I've read so far (it's the final one for now in a series of six) so check it out!

This was fun - you should try it!

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Unveiling "The Secret"

It was actually last week that I watched this movie, so I guess I'm a bit slow on the uptake. Let's just say I've been absorbing the information since then.

So, for those of you don't watch Oprah, this movie is about finding the secret to happiness in life. It basically states that if you visualize something, anything - money, cars, people, houses, etc. it will find a way into your life somehow. It's presented documentary style with people giving testiomonials of sorts. Some of them are truly eerie.

I have to say, that I think my first automatic response was skepticism. I'm not sure if that's just been ingrained in me through years of being taught that good things only come with hard work and dedication...or some sort of insecurity that I would be foolish to believe it because ... what if I did and then it didn't work? I guess above all, it just seems too easy. I found myself spending the movie searching for factually based scientific reasons why the secret might work in certain situations - like of course if you're focused on what you want, you're more likely to work toward a certain goal and achieve it eventually.

I think that the conclusion that I came to, at least for right now, is that it actually doesn't matter why it works. Sometimes not knowing why you're doing something can be the best way to go about it because you have less of a chance of overanalyzing things and getting in the way of yourself. Blind faith can be really powerful because there is way less room for second guessing and internal confusion.

I have definitely not implemented this secret into my life as much as I would like to or as much as I plan to, but I think it's a gradual thing. Particularly because it seems to be a process that requires some patience, and I know that jumping into something with full force can be dangerous, particularly for me because I am way more likely to get bored more quickly and give up all together. I do, however, believe whole heartedly in the message being put out by this secret. It tells us to think every day about what we're grateful for in our lives (which people do not do NEARLY enough) and use those things to guide what we want for our future. It's always a good idea to be clear about what you want, because then all you have to do is figure out how to make it happen :).

24: Fact or Fiction

I love 24, but sometimes it scares me.

Last night, the vice president was talking to Tom Lennox about how they should cover up who really attempted to assassinate the president because it would be better for American morale if it looked like the "terrorist" did it.

So, does the government lie to us because we can't handle the truth? Probably. And that's scary. That means that we have no choice but to completely trust these people who we don't really know and who might be dumber than rocks. We certainly don't know that we would agree with decisions they are making that affect us. Voting is crap. The system is outdated, and apparently someone who the majority of the country chooses as to lead can still...lose the election. Any takers on why it isn't being changed?

I don't know - I couldn't possibly pretend to know the extent to which the government "protects" us by lying about important things, and I'm not necessarily advocating honesty as the best policy - there are a lot of people in America who are not informed enough, nor are they smart enough to become informed enough to know about everything to be trusted with information or decisions. What's the solution here?

Wicked

So now - I've read the book, seen the show and bought the piano music :)

The show and the book are so different - I was talking to Meg and began to wonder whether or not it was a good thing that I read the book first. I certainly went into the show with preconceived notions aside from the plot structure. To me, it seemed sillier and more light hearted than the book. The book certainly attempted to drive its point about moral ambiguity home.

I guess the main point I've ascertained from the basis of this story about the witches of OZ is that we shouldn't judge the wicked. It attempts to justify the behavior of the Wicked Witch of the West. She was an outcast her whole life, her father disliked her, etc. etc. She used to be a good person, but then something changed ... There's something about the whole situation that makes me a bit uncomfortable. If, in fact, the original plan behind this whole idea was to justify immoral behavior by revealing an uncomfortable childhood, then that seems to me to be a cop-out. Just because someone has a difficult time, we should excuse their behavior. Actually, as I think about it now, this was really more the point of the book and less so for the show. In the show, I don't know that I ever really viewed Elphaba (the wicked witch of the west) as being a truly wicked person. It seemed more like she got the shaft from the Wizard who got everyone in OZ to hate her for his own personal gain (a theme I can certainly relate to). It was more like a conspiracy theory and less like an examination of human nature and the origin of evil.

But in the book, to continue my above argument - if they AREN'T attempting to justify evil behavior by grounding it in personal history, I think I like the message a lot more. If it is simply to shed light and understanding about another person's seemingly irrationally evil behavior by providing context, I firmly believe in its soundness. In fact, I have subscribed to this theory for a long time. I think that a lot of the problems human have stem from an unwillingness to put yourself in someone else's position. People make all sorts of excuses for the way they treat other people. That's a real problem in my eyes.

How Technology Could Make Things Worse

I've been having a lot of conversations with people lately about the role of technology in our lives. I've come up with a lot of negatives where its implementation is concerned.

1 - It isolates people and allows them to cut themselves off. People have IPODS - they can just stick their ear buds in and tune the rest of the world out. On the other hand, would these people really be talking to people around them if they DIDN'T have headphones?

2 - It cheapens interactions. People can get ahold of each other pretty much no matter what nowadays. Cell phones, text messages, email, facebook messages. We are in constant contact with each other. Remember back in the day when if you called someone and they weren't home, you just left a message and waited for them to call you back? This technology, I feel, allows people to take interactions for granted. Not just interactions, even, but everything. Everything, because of technology is so easy and accessible - it spoils us! On the other hand, it is nice to be able to reconnect with people from all walks of your life and stay in touch with them easily.

3 - Flaming. There was an article about the psychology behind this in the New York Times the other day. About the emotional distance people have when sending electronic messages. This causes people to say ridiculous things that they wouldn't otherwise say, things they could regret or things that could get them in serious trouble.

4 - Stalking. The Facebook feed creeps me out. Why do other people need to get automated updates about when I write on someone's wall? If I wanted Person A to know that I was contacting Person B, I would send Person A a message explaining it to them. The other problem is that people (myself included) do NOT understand how easy it is for online predators to find out way too much about people just by tidbits of information and research they do online. No one ever thinks they will be a target, so few people take precautions. This also applies to identity theft that occurs online with greater and great frequency.

5 - Privacy issues (the government chapter) - I have no idea what the government is looking at, and I have nothing to hide. I quite frankly don't care whether or not they know that I googled "power rangers" or "meta fiction" or whatever. It does, however, bring these issues more to the forefront given the accessibility of people's private lives via technology.

6 - Reigning it in. I think that technology is almost growing too quickly. People don't know how to fully use the technology we have before it is updated. It is not being implemented to the fullest extent with the most broad range of applications like it could be. And people don't think that they need to take that into consideration. If they don't know how to do something, technology will just produce a gadget to do it for them.

7 - Laziness. People are raising their children on tv, dvd's in cars, etc. No one has to entertain themselves anymore, there's always a virtual supplement. It's creating a weird world full of people who have add and so ironically, it's lowering the productivity level of our world in general.

I'm not saying that technology isn't wonderful, amazing and awe-inspiring. I use it a lot. My cell phone is my best friend, and I use a computer all the live long day. I do think, however, that before my generation is unique because we are fully integrated into the world of technology, but we are old enough to just barely remember what the days before the internet were like. And so, before technology takes over everyone's minds as the only way of life that has ever existed, I think it's just important to remember that although it may seem wonderful, there are some drawbacks that exist too, that warrant mentioning.

Karel's Addition

Karel brought this to my attention - it's a review of a similar book and people's comments about it :)

http://www.amazon.com/gp/discussionboard/discussion.html/ref=cm_rdp_st_rd/102-3397583-6450510?ie=UTF8&ASIN=1580627560&store=yourstore&cdThread=Tx3OZFM8KKV63YP&reviewID=R1WLJRS5X06ZTS&displayType=ReviewDetail#wasThisHelpful

Also - in the interest of the theme of my life - which is bringing everyone I know together, for world domination... :)

Every time someone new adds something, I'm going to introduce them so everyone knows who to respond to if they so choose, or at least where the person is coming from.

Karel is one of my best friends, lives in NYC, and is probably the best writer I know. She and I worked together at CTY many moons ago, and she is beautiful and amazing and I love her :)

And so it begins.

So I guess this is sort of like the introduction. Having a blog has always seemed to be sort of a strange and ... too self aware (there's a term for this that I can't remember, it's the same as when a book acknowledges the fact that it's a book...Karel was no help either - see? My English major is worthless!)

Anyway, the point is, that I think my purpose in starting this, aside from encouraging dialogue among my vast and varied group of amigos is a kind of forced honesty in a public domain. Even though a journal is traditionally written for purposes only concerning the writer, this is a journal that is written with the intentions of sharing it with other people. Which is still a bit of an odd concept for me.

Ok, well since I really have no transition, I'm just going to start :).

Yesterday, I was in Borders, kind of just wandering around. I happened to pick up a copy of a book that I thought would be funny/interesting to flip through. It was called "Why Men Love Bitches." I'm not even exactly sure where to start. I guess the first thing is that I totally disagreed with the author's definition of a bitch. The dichotomy that was used to define the word was that girls fall into two categories: bitch and doormat. This. Doesn't seem right to me somehow.

Next, the author proceeds to give snippets of potential conversation from both camps of females. And which would be better when trying to attract a mate. The book gives all sorts of dreadful advice: it talks about how to feign having a life outside of having a boyfriend because that will make him want you more (because why else would a woman have a life aside from using it as collateral in a romantic relationship?) It talks about how women should voice an opinion because men automatically assume that feisty women will be good in bed. It then goes on to completely contradict that tactic - there is an entire chapter explaining the "dumb fox" complex and how women should pretend to be stupid around their boyfriends and husbands because that will make the male feel more powerful. AND - EVEN FURTHER - it gives specific examples of what women should do to let "their men" protect them. I.e: pretend to be incapable of killing bugs, never change a tire around him, let him pump your gas.

This book was written in 2006. And worse still, it was written by a woman. I'm not sure if I actually need to explain what is wrong with all of this, but I'm going to at least give it a shot.

First and foremost, there is and cannot be any GUIDE to tell you how to "capture and keep" a man. Relationships are all different, and this game-playing, fake facade that the book designs for women to put on isn't even attractive, in my opinion. It's like a secret playbook. This is why so many girls act like such nitwits. This relationship propaganda encourages obsessive analysis of relationships and each person's role in it. It shouldn't be this hard. If it is, you're with the wrong person.

This is all, of course, completely ignoring the outdated themes concerning a "weaker sex" and needing a man to protect the woman and all that. That part is obvious...I think.

In my view, relationships can't be about a power struggle. In a lot of cases, they are. She plays hard to get, he chases. She decides she loves him and falls all over him and he backs away. It's a mess. But rather than fix these issues, these books only encourage and catalyze the situation. Inherently, men are NOT that different than women. It is ridiculous to pretend that all women can attract any man by following a formula.

I think the worst part of the book for me, however, is that it kind of traps you. The book starts off as very flippant and humorous - there are funny anecdotes, none of the suggestions are too severe. But as you progress, the book gets more and more horrifying to digest. And by the time I got to the end, I couldn't believe that I had even remotely agreed with anything this woman had to say. I felt tricked and betrayed by my own attitudes and ability to fall in line with what I was reading.

Needless to say. I don't recommend it.

in which i make my first entry

This is actually just kind of a test.


Imma post something for real tonight.