the most amazing weekend of my life (so far)

haha. i'm already laughing at my title. it's a throwback to just one of the many amazing things i did this weekend. but we'll get there.

honestly, at the outset, i wasn't all that excited about this weekend. it seemed like there were a lot of fun things planned, but i just was more in the mood to sit around and do nothing, so it was almost a bad thing that i had so many plans. especially considering that i am moving next weekend (yey!) and that will be quite the strenuous effort i'm sure. but - once i got into everything and got the momentum going ... it was cramazing. (crazy + amazing = my new stupid word that i'm kind of obsessed with :) )

friday - even though we got off to kind of a late start, eating at muldoon's was phenomenal. good food, and it was such an amazing double date for me because it seems to be the start of a long pattern of such nights (considering it was with my new roomie and her new boyfriend!!!) it was sad that we didn't make it to the dupage county fair in time to get in, but no lie, watching from the parking lot was almost better. we didn't have to pay, i didn't feel claustrophobic, and we could just leave whenever we wanted to! :) also - praise allah that dan and i finally BOUGHT the breakup, because i'm pretty sure that we've bought it at least twice with all the rental and late fees we've spent watching it so far. and also amazing that despite all our plans, we managed to watch it two or three times this weekend.

saturday - working out = amazing. it was such a beautiful day to go running, and run i did! it felt nice to get sweaty, and even though i'm really sore now, that feels pretty good too. i can't wait til i join the gym and start working out on a regular basis. i really miss it. and i miss the way i feel afterward. (i was really good this morning, pts, i could have gotten mickey d's breakfast or even a bagel, but i went to jewel and got yogurt and oatmeal! hooray for self discipline!) shopping was ... one of those things that's supposed to be a chore, but for some reason, didn't feel like one due to dan's amazing company :) and also the fact that we got to go to the pet store!!! and since it was saturday, everyone had their cutest ever little doggies for me to vicariously enjoy! :) we watched the dogs playing in doggie day care for a while until this guy kept talking to us and we got a bit scared and walked away. i even saw an adorable puggle!!! the graduation party, especially if you ask dan, was probably not particularly exciting, but i love spending time with dan's family. i love how much they love and appreciate him and how much he helps them out with everything. i also just love them! they're funny and fun and easy to be around and they make me feel extremely welcome. the SIMPSONS MOVIE!!! hahaha - that's what the title is about. but anyway, it was decent, funny. but it was fun going with a bunch of people. and my first buffalo wild wings experience wasn't half bad either. even though it was kind of an everyday kind of night, i just felt lucky to have so many great friends to do things like that with - and they're all so funny (i absolutely cannot WAIT to see everyone's halloween costumes!)

sunday - um, hello best food festival of my life. we went to pierogi fest in whiting, IN, and as i said then, and will repeat now, i honestly cannot think of a better food to dedicate an entire festival to. and once again, it was nice to be around dan's family and get to know jim and judy even better. they're so much fun, and i actually really love their kids (even though jimmy CAN be the devil sometimes). even though i think my favorite food of the day was the fudge topped funnel cake, the whole thing was just really fun and special. and i didn't want it to end. which is why i made the perhaps foolish decision to stay at dan's on a sunday night. which is why i ended up waking up at 4:40am and getting to work before 7. oh well - today is going to be a long one - ack! i am going to be so tempted to read harry potter all day! and thoughts of a certain someone i'm sure, will continually be on my brain :) but this is the last week of forced separation - after this, it's all voluntary, baby!

avoid...

complacency. honestly, i think that lack of complacency is what keeps me afloat most of the time. never being satisfied and always working for more.

Creepy Horoscope

So, it's kind of weird how they know me just a little too well sometimes ...

If your life has been improving, you might be wondering how long this positive phase will last. Although nothing is permanent, worrying about unforeseen changes is usually a waste of energy. By consciously focusing your attention on the present moment, the good times will last longer than you expect.

frustrations galore

bah!

my room is messy and even though i don't really feel like going through the effort of cleaning it, it's bothering me! i'm moving out soon so i really feel like cleaning it would be fruitless. i keep tripping over things. and this room is hectic and crazy cause i have something to do every night, so i feel a bit rushed.

but i'm soso happy!

post-party depression?

i just had a spectacular weekend. i went to my cousin's lakehouse for his graduation party with dan, and as is the norm down there - everyone was drunker than cooter brown before noon. it was great, and i always have such a great time with my mom while she's there. she always seems more relaxed and happy when she's with those people. which makes me happy. she's a little less my mom and a little more one of my drunken college friends that understands about beirut, keg stands and needing a hot dog at 3 am. ha.

it was also really amazing because i seem to have finally found someone that can not only understand and tolerate some of my unusual and obnoxious drunk behavior but sometimes joins in and has also pledged to adjust hi behavior in conjunction with mine. in true molly style, halfway through the afternoon, i feel like passing out, but of course, don't tell anyone where i'm going. dan finds me - 90 minutes later, sleeping in my mom's bed. of course, he was worried and a little upset at first. but after some oh so rational drunken discussion, he promised that from now on, he'll know that that is just something that i do, and he'll keep an eye on me because he just doesn't want anything to happen to me. people are always talking about how the key to a successful relationship is honesty and compromise. but i'm not entirely sure they are just referring to ordering a pizza even though you really want chinese. the most important compromise ... (realizing and understanding the following concept is definitely an important first for me) is realizing that maybe the way you do everything isn't necessarily perfect. that maybe you don't have to defend everything you do just because you thought it was right at one time. you truly find someone you love, and then you bend your outlook on life in certain aspects because the other person just can't. and you know that it will never work otherwise. you apologize even when you know you're right sometimes just because it's more important to the other person in certain instances. and you know the whole time that he'd do the same thing for you and that in the end, everything balances out. because you're never going to find the perfect package deal. there are going to be times when you're going to feel the least in love with that person that you've ever felt and he's going to make me mad and i'm going to hate him. but the love part is getting past all that and knowing that he's the one worth fighting for.

my dad has been right all along. (by the way, realizing that your parents were right about things that you have been arguing with them about since you were a teenager has GOT to be one of the most frustrating things in the world. and it's been happening to me pretty much continuously since sophomore year of college). but he was definitely right about this. if you really and truly love someone, they could never really do anything wrong in your eyes. true love has been romanticized a lot in a variety of different mediums, and so i think that maybe its concept has been run off track a little. and that's bad because i think that fact is partially to blame for the extremely high current divorce rate.

anyway. not that i am the expert on love or anything. maybe i don't have a clue. but i honestly didn't think i could ever feel the way i do right now. it's different. and to me, that's a good sign, because all that other stuff that was the same didn't really work out too well...

a sense of accomplishment

it's funny what can make you feel productive. for my mom, it's cleaning the house. i have to admit, i don't feel half bad about myself when my room is clean (number one, yes i'm aware that that sounds like something a 13 year old might say and number two, wow it is SO messy right now. in fact, i have to get on it, or i won't get my allowance for this week ;) )

i mean, in college, it was easy - you write a paper and look at the bulk of it and think "damn. i'm so amazing. how did i manage to churn out 18.5 pages about how the jazz movement affected and reflected the civil rights movement?"

now that i've entered the working world, does that mean that feelings of accomplishment only come around twice a month (hellooooooo - pay day! )

no. you have to learn to feel accomplished about the little things. like when i finish writing this entry and see it posted, it will for some strange reason, make me feel good about myself. i think it has something to do with leaving your mark around for other people to see. like if there's physical proof that you've done something, then you're allowed to be proud of it.

i'm going to start being proud of stuff you can't see. i'll make a list though, so everyone knows what it is :)